When the Message Gets Inside: How Self-Directed Ageism Shrinks Possibility

When I was younger, I made a simple promise to myself. Every year, I would try one new thing.

It didn’t have to be dramatic. Sometimes it was a new skill, sometimes a new role, sometimes just walking into a room where I didn’t know anyone. What mattered was that it was unfamiliar. Each time, I noticed the same thing happen. I learned something, or I grew a little, or I discovered I was more capable than I had assumed.

That habit followed me into later life.

Now, when I present at workshops or strike up conversations with people I’ve just met, I often hear the same response: “I could never do what you’re doing.” It’s usually said kindly, sometimes admiringly. But underneath it, I hear something else. Not humility. Not realism. Self-doubt.

Somewhere along the way, many capable, curious older adults have absorbed the message that certain doors are no longer meant for them. Not because of physical limits or lack of interest, but because of an internal voice that says, people our age don’t do that.

One of the unexpected joys of being a senior is realizing that I don’t have to care as much about what others think. That freedom can be light, almost playful. And yet, I see friends who don’t feel it. Friends who won’t tackle anything new because they’re afraid to fail, or worse, afraid to look foolish.

I don’t feel sorry for them. I feel sad.

Not because their lives lack meaning, but because they’re missing moments that might surprise them. Activities that could be fun. Opportunities that might open new doors. Conversations that could lead to friendships they didn’t know they needed. Self-directed ageism doesn’t take away what we already have. It quietly limits what we’re willing to reach.

A friend of mine offers a powerful example of how strong and how fragile this internal barrier can be.

He lost his wife five years ago. Grief reshaped his world, as it does. Two years ago, he attended his high school reunion. It was emotional, nostalgic, and grounding all at once. About a year after that, he was looking through the list of people who had attended and saw a name he hadn’t thought about in decades. His first girlfriend, back in grades eight and nine.

He paused.

Part of him wanted to get in touch. Another part shut the idea down immediately. What would I say? What if she doesn’t remember me? What if it’s awkward? He told himself it was too late, too complicated, too far away. She lived in the Interior of British Columbia. He lived on the coast. Distance became a convenient reason to stop thinking about it.

Self-doubt won.

Months passed. Then, one day, he found himself thinking about her again. The memory hadn’t faded. This time, instead of pushing it away, he did something that made him deeply uncomfortable. He sent an email.

It was short. Simple. Almost painfully cautious. “Are you Linda, and do you remember me?”

Then he left on a two-week camping trip with his children and grandchildren, convinced he’d either hear nothing back or return to an awkward silence.

She responded within a day.

And then she waited.

When he came back and finally replied, the restart was rocky. They had both lived full lives. They were careful, unsure, and very aware of what could go wrong. But they kept talking. Slowly, honestly, without pretending to be younger versions of themselves.

Today, they are a couple. And they are both very happy.

This story isn’t about romance. It’s about permission. The permission to risk embarrassment. The permission to try. The permission to believe that curiosity doesn’t expire.

Self-directed ageism shows up when we stop sending the email, stop signing up, stop raising our hand, stop imagining ourselves in new situations. It affects confidence, yes. But it also affects health choices, social engagement, and our willingness to stay connected to life beyond our routines.

The discomfort of trying something new doesn’t disappear with age. If anything, it can feel sharper, because the cultural message tells us we should be narrowing our world, not expanding it.

But the truth is, possibility doesn’t shrink on its own. It shrinks when we quietly agree that it should.

Recognizing self-directed ageism can be unsettling. It asks us to notice where we’ve absorbed limits that were never ours to begin with. And while that realization can sting, it also opens a door.

Because once we see the message for what it is, we can choose, sometimes nervously, sometimes boldly, not to let it have the final word.